1 more week to my surgery... am I that calm and cheerful as I appear?? Why am I taking it so easily? Aren't I suppose to be very bother about my surgery?? am I really that brave wat others said about me... I dunno and I doubt...

For the past few days, without fails, I have that biggest smile on my face... mischievous, cheerful and easygoing as usual... BUT I just felt so un-me... so unusual when I can still keep my usual composure, I thought I might be panicky... haiz.... I just felt very un-me... wanted to talk to someone... but dunno how and who... ARRRRH....

I believe this will be my darkest week... and I already lost my identity, I am unable to identify who is me... panicky and sad me or calm and cheerful me??