Who am I? I totally lost myself again.. I have too much things on my mind... everything is haunting me... I saw the past... repeating itself... I'm facing darkness again... I always hope to turn to someone... someone that I truely trust BUT.... haiz... I totally felt so distance... I felt aliened... I really hope that I can just remain unchanged.... but I can't... many times I wondered if the world really turn?? ignore me... I don't even know what on my mind... I just hope for a peace and blank mind... BUT all the troubles and memories are just there... just there waiting to devour me.... I can't run... I can't hide... WHY?? coz all around me is just darkness and emptiness... I am scare... I am scare that I might fall into the bottomless pit... I am now looking and staring at the sky above me... LOOK!! IT IS dark... nothing... absolutely nothing.. I look at the tree around me... look so dead.... I look at the people around me... they look like living corpse... I really talk to someone but i doubt anyone could truely understand me... who else can I turn to? God? Yes, I do believe in God but now, currently at this very moment... I can't... I can't... My mask is cracking... My mask is cracking... the strength in me is distinguishing... where shall I head?? Do I really have put on that smile and tell ppl around me that I'm okay?? I dunno... sometimes, it is too tired... the mask is too heavy... I can't breathe!! I felt like I am drowning... BUT I'm don't feel like struggling.. too tired to struggle... too tired... too tired... Do I have to mix around and talk to ppl, to make frds? Why can't I just be myself?? WAIT, I don't even know who am I?? why must we be tied down to a heavy rock?? why can't we fly??? JUST fly... feel the air... feel the wind... I am totally tired, drained out... but I can't sleep... haiz... just ignore me... I just have no one to talk to....