HELP!!! It's growing within me... I can feel it... it is back... I tot I had it subdued... Perhaps I had not... Sleepless nights are back... Images are forming again... Flashbacks are in running my mind... I saw shadows, I heard sound... Perhaps I shouldn't have make that decision... All I want is just a peace of mind... Is that very hard?

(Staring at the starry sky...) Where is the rainbow??

I know I need to grow stronger! I have to overcome! I need to be confident! I can do it! I need to fight! I am what I am and I am special! No one can distort the truth that I am unique! I have to CONQUER!! CONQUER!! CONQUER MYSELF!!

Give me the hope! Give me the strength! Give me the energy! Give me the edurance! Give me the paitence! Give me the power! Give me the wisdom!