Someone told me this, "I chose to love you in silence, for in silence I find no rejection"

I started to ponder it and doubt the credibility of this phrase… If I choose to love her in silence, does it mean a better route to me? Does that really mean I won’t get any rejection? I doubt so… and I think it is more painful and hurting being silence…

Well, I am not a person with lots of love experiences but I certain to say that it is not easy to love someone in silence… If I love her, and the little me decided not to tell her because I dare not to face the verbal rejection… I continued to love her in silence and she took notice of my love because I am such a good actor to hide all my love for her… We continued to go out as friends… I enjoyed the time together…

One day, she called me; “I found him…” My heart collapsed almost immediately… She found herself someone who she like and that someone is one of my best friend… These were not verbal rejection BUT these are emotion rejections, which hurt more… I regretted… I regretted that I shouldn’t hide my feeling for her and expressed to her when I have a chance.

I continued to choose to remain silent… Continued to go out with her and her BOYFRIEND… These make me hurt more… I wanted to cry but I can’t… I had to act extremely hard to be happy for them… You will never understand the feeling… especially when they hold hands, kissed and hugged… These made my heart more painful…

I started to reflect on my decision for loving her in silence… Did I make a right choice? What am I waiting for? Is this the outcome I am waiting for? What is the chance that we might be together? Perhaps ZERO… After the long wait, these are what I achieve? Yes, there maybe no rejection, verbal one BUT these emotion rejections kill me inside out… If I expressed my love, I guessed I would not go through all these painful moment…

PS: The story above is purely fictional…. HAHAHA….