I met him today.. tried to chat abit but I felt like stranger.. He used to be my best of friends, my best buddy... I felt so drifted apart.. I can't associate with him anymore.. Today topic seems rather a turn down..

I shared abit on my future plan and he started to give me that "raise eyebrow" look.. hinting that it is better to stick to what I am good at... It is such a disappointment... fews had supported me, encouraged me, and yet some pulled me down to ground zero.. The last thing I need is someone to pull me into eternal hell...

This reminded me of the show which I just watched, High School Musical... A basketball boy and a mathematic genius girl facing peer pressure to do something that they really like... which is singing, being on stage...

Well, actually I could easily just go ahead with my plan, but fragile me need confirmation and encouragement along the way and yet it is so little that I receive..

Have a very long walk today (in JB, hahahaha)... not in a very good mood, those who know me well will know that when I started walking for no reason, mean something is bothering real badly. YES, I'm very sad... very very sad...

Nothing stand clear and stay true forever,
The jewel that once shine, will lose its glory.
The pillars that used to stand by me, had crumble and fall.
I have nothing and I am all left alone.