Breaking down... teary eyes... Another moment of darkness in my life again... it's almost 7pm and I am still in the office... unwillingly to leave... not becuase i am working... but I am scared... Facing so much stress at work... feeling very tensed already... on top of that, going for surgury next week also give me so much stress.... not the scare at the operating theatre, but somehow, I can't dump my work aside and leave... so much of problems... work... work... work... work... work... work... BUT I am still holding on... but not for long...

With upcoming more stress coming up... I might be starting my study in July... more stress coming along.. I don't know if I can manage it well... Work stress alone is a killer... Plus study? I think I am really putting myself to the limit.. putting myself in the war zone.. AWAS... DANGER...

Money? Ever since I wash my hands off the basin of finance, i felt that I have much less money to use... not used to it... running out of cash so easily... Studying tuition fees, year end getaway trip, commitment... I start to feel the pressure... Hopefully Mr S11 won't be too much an impact to my life..

Personal life? I don't what will happen if I can't cope the above well... I am sure it will affect my personal life.. The worst have to be feared... I dunno if I can handled it well... Feeling very weak, old and tired..

7pm already.. what's stopping me from leaving? My mum... She just got admitted to the hospital.. I felt so scared... I love my mum a lot.. although I seldom show my love... but she know... I am not so prepare to go to the hospital and heard something bad from the doctors.. but nonetheless... I need to go over and find out what's wrong...

I am feeling very tired... I feel like switching off... off it and that's it... end of problems.. recharged it and returned fully charge to face all these... but no... i can't... problems is adding on and on as days passes...

*tired....