Why am I hiding? I recalled one of my teacher said... "The best thing about us, human, we are emotional being... and we (as actors) need this emotion spirit within... The feeling in you, let's it flow, don't contain it. Let it flow freely"

I never know how to contain my emotion well.. Coz it is in me... It's simply flow out of me.. it's me... (a very typical taurus) It's always very obvious to tell if I am happy or sad... shine never fail to detect and tried her best to cheer me up... Thanks shine...

Ying reminded me just now, we need to meet the basic need of the 5 components of a human being, Physical, Mental, Emotional, Social and Spiritual... only with all 5, I will feel whole. (I wondered)

Yes, felt rotten, felt invisible, felt as thin as smoke, felt helpless, felt lousy. I really wondered if I am to leave tomorrow, will there be a difference? Perhaps no one will notice. I really dunno... I really dunno... I guessed nothing gonna change....