Woke up with tears in my eyes... don't feel quite right... must be damn disappointed with her last nitez... I mean I don't blame her... ermmm... hope she's not reading this or else she will start to slaughter me... hahahaha... Whole of last nitez, I being questioning myself, shall I persist what I hope for in the first place?

Woke up all emotional just now... and I heard the song "You Raise me Up" from a far distance... (I'm still wondering if I am really hearing it... or it's just my mind playing trick on me) It wasn't very clear but I got worse... felt like I had just fall hard from a great height.. simply so lost... lost the sense of feel... feel not touch... the emotional sense... I switched on my PC and blast the song with all my might the whole morning... and just couldn't take it anywaymore and YES... the brainless side of me recorded down my expression... hmmm... reliased that other than writing and drawing, video-ing could be my next way of destressing... to relieve myself... kinda weird but it's simply bring out all the burden I have inside into the video... and felt the weightless shoulder after that.... and yes... it is damn funny looking at it...