I am totally down and super no mood today after I seen him...
The world didn't come crushing on me... I'm fine.. just that many thoughts went thru my mind... I am not afraid of death... Naturally, since the day I know what is death... I know my turn is coming soon.. Perhaps it's my job... I started to worry... The medical bill which can potentially wipe out the entire saving and fortune due to the fact that I do not have insurance (for illness)... I started to worry about my mum... I started to worry about my brother... I do not have regrets if I am to leave tomorrow... but... it hurt me a lot to see them worrying...

Perhaps I'm worrying too much... it's only preliminary....