Why am I going through all these? I felt so... drifted apart, torn apart... Somehow... I felt alone... wept for a few nitez... Why should pretend to be strong when I am not? Why can't I cry out when I am weak? Just because I am a man (MALE)? LAME! I am a human being... with all 5 senses and emotions... I also need a support... I getting tired... very tired...

No feeling, no inspiration, no determination... I need a break... a long break... I need a good laugh... a real laughter which is really from my heart and not from my mask... What is wrong with me when things seems so right actually went so wrong...