Woah... It has being 1 year and 2 months since I joined XTOMIC... Time flies... I still remember the first time I performed at Esplanade with the CCCrush, 26th Nov 2004... well... it was very fun... I remember the time when we were all so excited at the backstage... we were "playing" at the backstage... Of course I can't forget the tedious efforts that we put in to make it a success... The best thing for me at least, because I was still a pretty new signer that time, 2 days after the performance, we had another performance at Civic Plaza... OMG... it is kinda stressing for me that time... gotta memorise lyrics and the signs...

Joining XTOMIC have bring me a number of change in my life... I have much more friends, less anti-social, feel young again (so many teenagers), more self confidence, able to sign much better... Well... I felt that XTOMIC bring me relaxation, a feeling of family, a great sense of accomplishment after each small performance... I love the big family, I love the time spent with XTOMIC... playing cards, mahjong, sequence... going out together... hang out... make jokes, have fun, dinner... well, I thought I might not be able to find friends after my polylife.... Look like I am wrong...

I wish make use of this time to thank Lily Goh, Huishan, Jason, Jocelynn, Adelynn, Chee Tian, Nora, Karter, Audrey, Lydia, Fern, Richmond, Angeline, Jorena, Geeta, Angela, Aaron, Melvin, Karyin, Ken and all those who I have miss out for making a change in my life... Let us hope that we are able to have our own concert and let us continue to be one big family.....

The Gift

Winter snow is falling down, children laughing all around.
Lights are turnin' on, like a fairy tale come true.
Sitting by the fire we made, you're the answer when I prayed
I would find someone, and baby I found you.

And all I want is to hold you forever.
All I need is you more everyday.
You saved my heart from being broken apart,
you gave your love away,
and I'm thankful everyday for the gift.

Watching as you softly sleep,what I'd give if I could keep
just this moment, if only time stood still.
But the colors fade away, and the years will make us gray,
but baby in my eyes, you'll still be beautiful.

And all I want is to hold you forever.
All I need is you more everyday.
You saved my heart from being broken apart.
You gave your love away,
and I'm thankful everyday for the gift.

All I want is to hold you forever.
All I need is you more everyday.
You saved my heart from being broken apart.
You gave your love away,
Can't find the words to say
And I'm thankful everyday for the gift.

Above is a beautiful song by Collin Raye, The Gift, and this song actually gave me gift too... Let me share with you....

9th Nov 05, I heard this song for the first time... and I was assigned to be the reflective signer for this song... FIRST time I am doing reflective signing... well, I was pretty shock to have a partner... well... I am kinda uneasy... don't really like to team with ppl.. kekee... Little to I know, she became the gift for me..

The gift that I never thought that I could receive it... A gift so beautifully with so many gifts in her standing beside me and performed the song "The Gift"... I was listening to this song this morning and she came to my mind... and after listen closely to the lyrics... Yes, I am thankful everyday for the gift... Let's treasure every moment spent....

Carl Denham: Ladies and gentleman, I give you... KONG!

Yes... It's King Kong... Greatest Love Hero ever exist... why?? Look at his size!!! Who is greater than him?? Who will climb up the Empire State Building to battle against the planes??

Yes... to many, it is just another love story, another monster story... but too me, it reflect something more than just a beauty and a beast... It is a worthy 3hrs and 7 minutes of show... definitely worth your money... no joke... You will either shed blood or at least tears for this show... why??? blood?? how?? ur gf might pull ur hand and join in the biting ceremony with the short handed T-Rex... (That's explain why t-rex have dirty teeth... hands too short to reach for the mouth and hence nvr brush) Why blood?? sit there for 3 hrs and your piles start bursting.. OUCH!!! hahaha... Tears? I believe you will understand... SUCH A SAD STORY!!!!! really hard to control your tears... and if u can hold back your tears, you can't help it but also felt heart broken... OR you sit till your butt is in real pain... hahaha

I must say that the show is good... the atmosphere of the theatre change very obviously... you can see the cheers and laughters in the initial part... so much of comedies and jokes... then the audiences start to go into the gan cheong (excited) mood... when they battle against dinosaurs and giant insects... and finally the crying mood where King Kong battled against the spitting noisy "mosquitoes" (US War Planes)... ermmm... I wasn't so sure if the whole theatre behaved the same but at least for the 3 rows in front of me behaved that way... saw many girls cruddle into the guys' huggies and embraces to shed the precious tears... but definitely, my eyes is so much glued to the screen that I had no choice to hold back my tears...

C'mon frds!! For those who have not watch, don't watch unless you are all ready for the blood and tears... for those who watched, let's King Kong remained in our heart as the greatest love hero...

Hayes: We could not understand because we were too far and could not remember because we were traveling in the night of first ages, of those ages that are gone, leaving hardly a sign - and no memories. The earth seemed unearthly. We are accustomed to look upon the shackled form of a conquered monster, but there - there you could look at a thing monstrous and free.

Yes, for those who watched "King Kong".... Let's spend a minute of silence for King Kong... I had just watched the love impossible movie... Story of a beast and a beauty embarking on a journey of true love... true love that is not meant to be said, not meant to be told, but felt from within the heart...

Cheers for the those who shed tears and blood in and for the show... You had just watched one of the most touching movie of the year...definitely more touching than that metal giantic ship show with a lady "flying"... I learnt many things from the show... Love is beyond measure and beyond description.. No word can ever describe how good is the love and no measurement can ever tell us how deep is the love... I also saw the that love is just between you and your partner... no one can see that invisible force that protect each other even till the very last minute... You can sense the danger, the need, the desire of your love one... even willing to sacrifice yourself just to ensure the safety of your love one... Love is not judgemental... No one else can judge the true love... no matter how incompatible they can be, I believe in true love... the one true love that can tear no couple apart... Yes, poeple comment and people may not understand but in this one true love... it is just about you and your partner and no one else... so, heck care other's comments...

King Kong's death did not go to wasted. He did not died for nothing, he died for his belief... Because he believe in one true love and so we shall not waste his effort and let us continue to share this season with love....

Carl Denham: It wasn't the airplanes; it was beauty killed the beast.

ARRRH... Headache... Pain... Every Christmas, without fail, I am sure to get sick... especially after 2003... and terribly sick... not any normal cold, flu or cough.... ARRHHH... PAIN... HEAD spinning arh... my worst headache ever since I know I need to go for a surgery... anyway , I am going against the surgery... NOTHING is going to change my mind...

"This the season to be sickly, Fa, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la...."

I think I really need to sleep le... Ohhhhh... Christmas Eve tomorrow!!! but my dear is not free to accompany me and I have NO WHERE to go... brother bringing his frds back to play the whole nitez... look like my fate is just to lock myself in the room or dump myself outside, somewhere down your block to sleep ba... SO... ANYONE wanna accompany this poor little guy for the Christmas Eve?? Don't mind that I am sick... just wanna get out of the house!!! hahahaha.... Hmmm... time's up... go sleep le.... before my head burst!

Everything about you is simply amazing.
You look like a princess of the noble.
Your speech and pose is graceful.
The dress you are in look elegant.
The smile on your face is so lovely.
Having you by myself is my greatest achievement.

I belong to the group INFJ.... and I found these....

INFJ

The agreeable nature and quiet personality of INFJs makes them particularly vulnerable to hurt feelings. Distress within close relationships can shatter the INFJ. Like all NFs under stress, INFJs feel fragmented and lost — as if they are acting out a part rather than simply being themselves. This disassociation can be related to physical symptoms for the INFJ, whether real or imagined. Feeling split off from their physical natures, INFJs may become virtually immobilized by repressed feelings.

Although INFJs may feel like remaining still and stationary until the chaos and confusion of a stressful situation dissipates, it would be best for them to actively sort out their needs from others. Being excessively cooperative and agreeable, the INFJ has a tendency to adopt values and beliefs of others as their own. When external conflicts grow, so does the INFJ's sense of personal disharmony. Disassociating themselves from others takes a great deal of effort for the INFJ.

Read "Stress Special" of the Sunday Times, I discovered that I could belong to Type D Personality... Yes, D for Distress, the gloomy and anti-social group of people.. and yes, that's me...

Here what's written about the Type D:

"Type D are anxious, irritable and insercure, tending towards pessimistic thoughts and exhibiting tense and inhbited social behaviour. Such personality types can have more pronounced physiological reaction to stress, such as higher blood pressure, which leads to health problems like an increased risk of developing cardiovascular problems after a heart attack.. Being a Type D, however, is not a mental illness, and its possible harm effects on one's health can be mitigated by things like improving your social relationships."

After reading this... this keep me wondering... what's about Type A, B, C E, F to Z??? hahaha... can anyone get me the whole test?? I wanna see which group I belong to.... kekee....

FYI, "Type D are anxious, irritable and insercure, tending towards pessimistic thoughts and exhibiting tense and inhbited social behaviour." is totally true about me... kekee.....

I went out with a vietnamese girl this morning... dressing in her vietnamese dress... she looked very beautiful... I was totally drawn to her.... walking gently and slowly toward me, wind blowing at her hair and dress... WOAH.... so Beautiful.... I almost melted before her...

So... anyone who is reading this blog... I need ur help... anyone know where to get Ao Dai for guys in Singapore??? so that can match her dressing next time... kekee....

Lord, I am seeking power and strength to stand firm... Sure and Steadfast... I shall set anchor and will not sink... seeking a heart of purity, seeking a heart of courage... let me be the one who will protect my loves one always...

Lord, I am thankful that I exist and still existing... You showed me my weakness and I will improve it... I am seeking your strength so that I will be able to protect myself....

Lord, I stand before you with nothing to my name... I'm asking for a sense of belonging and I know I belong to you... Continue to remind me of your presence....

The desert in my heart rain for the first time this year... Green grass is growing... symbolising life... Rainbow in the sky... symbolising hope... the clouds gathered... symbolising joy... oasis was formed... symbolising happiness... all these are growing... growing.... C'MON!! turn this land to a land of life, hope, joy and happiness... and I will furnish it with love.....

Walking under the sky of stars, I was holding your hands, I felt your warmth and love... I knew this is real... Under the moonlight, I saw your eyes, bright and clear, I saw that hope and love is that near... Through the breeze, I smell of your sweetness, leaving the deepest memories in my mind... Looking at the time, I know it is late, but it will never be too late to love you...

Happy.... Sha lala.... I am very happy...

SLEEPLESS NITEZ......

Almost EVERY NIGHT!!! ARRRRH!!!

Crash my skull, boil my brain, grill my eyes and steam my ears.... I am falling apart.... getting more and more tired than ever... getting more and more disturbed... Stars aren't shining as much as usual.... Moon don't glow as much as usual.... It's a very quiet night......