Horus Sparkling personality, intense will, intelligent, understanding, impatient to exert influence. Colors: male: red carmine, female: gold Compatible Signs: Bastet, Geb Dates: Apr 20 - May 7, Aug 12 - Aug 19 Role: God of the pharaoh Appearance: Form of a falcon-headed man, wearing the double crown of Upper and Lower Egypt Sacred Animal: falcon What is Your Egyptian Zodiac Sign? Designed by CyberWarlock of Warlock's Quizzles and Quandaries

You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

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"you got quite a lot of dian3 zi (evidence: the way you surprise so many ppl during odie's bd party), i'm sure you've got a way with girls one, hahahaha!!" vikki told me...

Oops... is this a compliment or a not-so-good-boy remarks?? hahahaha... i never know I have a way with girls... I am such a shy animal lor... HAHAHA... nonetheless... Thanks arh... I REALLY never knew that I have a way with girls.. I guess you are one of the first few who commented that, other than my frds who always teased me having too much gal frds... haiz... Am I able to deal with her? HAIZ....

Wooh! Celebrated HS surprise "not-so-surprised" surprise birthday earlier on and guess what? we went clubbing and I dress ermm... not so appropriate... StarMisT too... HAHAHA.... in fact, we aren't really prepare for it... kekee... nonetheless... lesson learnt, wear something appropriate on Friday... HAHAHAHA...

being quite a while since I last went clubbing... oh great, I really feel older now... Oops... I think I just offended someone when I said that.. hahaha... you know who u are... don't worry, you are still as equally pretty, smart, attractive, and of course YOUNG! It's only me who is old... hahahaha... hey... MJ session??

SO much of fun at DXO... I think it's the first time I went clubbing with the XTOMIC-ers ba... hmmm... i can still remember how we tease saltybanana... kekee... so FUN!! yes... take a closer look at the picture... I am sure u can find me and my new "boyfriend"... kekee

Chicky made me so happy this morning... I never know he could be so caring... nonetheless... Thank you, chicky... should meet ya soon for kopi...

Konkused.... My department will be restructuring (close down, to be precise), out of 16 staffs, 4 staffs will be re-deployed... I am really "lost" coz I wanna be RETRENCHED.... HAHAHAHAHA... anyway, I got to stay... anyway, thanks Dr Lim... otherwise I could have act something rashly...

I can't sleep... Tossing around in my bed, staring at the ceiling.. My head can't stop thinking of ******... She kept appearing in my mind.... I can't wait to see her... haiz....

How I wish there is a switch, off it and I'll be able to fall into deep sleep.... ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzz.....

我在等候那个百日不变的黎明，
一个光芒无限的奇迹。
我在等待那个五彩缤纷的彩虹，
一个百思不解的希望。
我在渴望那个霹雳动地的豪雨，
一个无人知有的精力。
我在期待那个不可思议的夕阳，
一个叹为观止的奥妙。
我在欲望那个美丽动人的月光，
一个不可言喻的梦想。
我在等候那个志气昂昂的丛林，
一个永不眠睡的生命。
我在等待那个来势汹汹的狂风，
一个动力无限的活力。
我在渴望那个自由自在的河流，
一个不屈不挠的资源。
我在期待那个壮气无穷的山丘，
一个脚踏实地的梦想。
我在欲望那个芳香满天的花草，
一个别有特色的风味。

Ying called me when I was about to sleep... good timing there... kekee... She called to sound me out... kekee... well, I must admit at the moment, she is the person who best know me. Likewise, she don't give advice, don't give comments but she set me to think..

She will be back to Singapore 2 weeks later for a "holiday"... quite a while since we last met... You will have my entire weekend! kekee...

"... wanna remind u tat e longer u keep urself in bad mood, e further ur distance from ur frds" Someone told me this today... How I wish I am in good mood... I tried my best the past few days.. think of happy memories, do things to destress myself (which I am not stress, so no use), watch TV, read, sleep, eat, smile as much as possible... All I can say is if emotions are so easily within my control, I won't be in this state...

Finally, I decided to called him and a little chat with him over dinner just now... it's being quite a while since I last seen him when I began to manage my own life... He was kinda shock to see me again... (look like I am such a detestable person)...

He still used his same old ways on me... Anyway, it still "work" on me... coz he is always that assuring... AND AND AND, something I really admire about him, he is able to wait for me to finish ALL my talking before he start talking and he remember every single thing I said...

(key point extracted only)
me: I just enjoyed being myself.. isolated, departed from this world.. No more fake smiles, no more fake laughter to make others merrier and myself more miserable.
him: okay.. ask yourself, is it good or no good for you to be isolated?
me: ermmm... well... at least I don't feel so tired after all... I guess it's good?
him: okay... so you mean it is good to be isolated.. good, does isolation from the world does you any help?
me: alamak... you and ur question... no, it's not bringing me any benefit in the long run BUT at least for now, I just wanna indulge in my loneliness... being the jim that I used to know... he need to be release, u know?
him: Oh okay.. so you need to let the wild cat out of the cage?
me: hahaha... ya right...
him: so, is it possible to have the wild cat to be in the wilderness for that long time?
me: haiz... I wish it can but I still need to work so gotta lock it out during office hours.. ha..
him: hmmm... well, wild cat is kinda dangerous in the wilderness, from what I know.
me: okay, stop the nonsense... I know what kind of qns you will ask. I know u long enough to know that. just go straight to point.
him: hahaha... well, it is good to let go of yourself once in a blue moon and I know that you always let go of urself during the mid yr and yr end period.. You can continue to do that, and of course please remember to think for yourself at times, don't put on a smile which make urself miserable. if you are miserable, say it out, sing it out, dance it out, draw it out, shout it out... do whatever thing you felt pleased. Here a few things I need you to do for me. List down 10 things that people know about you, 10 things people don't know about you and 10 things you wish people know about you. can?? simple?
me: kaoz, everytime I see you, I have to do homework! very tiring leh... btw, it sound very bloggy to me... anyway, I be mySELF just for today and 1 last day, I hope...
him: Am I really that mean? haha.. Is being yourSELF for one more last day good or not good for you?
me: wau lau... u start again... as usual, my answer will be at least to me, I feel good...
him: What?? I started again? haha... I am just trying to set your mind to think than to idle. okay, so being yourself for 1 last day, is it helping you or hurting you? Does it stop your usual activities?
me: It's not hurting me or helping me... ermm, yes... it's helping me.. helping me to feel good... stop my usual activities? no... I am still breathing and eating and u know...
him: okay... good... so... shall I see you again on ........................................

The session is good... I know him so well that he always set my brain to think and think and think... that's his style... which is good... it's past midnight now and I think I felt good... After spending so much today.. on shopping and pampering myself... HAHAHA... and yes not forgetting my essential... Ben & Jerry... OK... gotta do my homework...

Had a terrible week... It's that time of the year again... Do I have to go thru these all over again? These are what I will tell you.... SO, don't probe...

"If life could be easier if everything is that simple..."

"Life is like a stage?? Don't talk to me about stage.. If life is really like a show, I don't think I like it with the attention at me... Thanks"

"I felt breathless facing the world alone..."

"Mask is mysterious but can be choking too"

"Behind my laughter, smiles... no one actually know I am crying deep within"

"You know what, people told me that the world aren't going to change for me... I gonna change to adapt the world... NOW what? I changed and I lost myself... "

"Just leave me alone... I wanna indulge in my loneliness..."

"If he think using harsh word on me is going to work, I'm sorry... it's bringing nowhere... NO... not nowhere... it's DOWN!"

"I feeling, ermm... kinda lost.. I mean, I don't feel very complete..."

"I hope I know, I thought I know but the truth is I don't know and perhaps I never want to know... well, that's what most people say... Innocence is blissful..."

"You know what is the problem with me? The problem with me is I know the problem with me and I can't do anything to the problem"

"There are so many factors I need to consider!"

I met him today.. tried to chat abit but I felt like stranger.. He used to be my best of friends, my best buddy... I felt so drifted apart.. I can't associate with him anymore.. Today topic seems rather a turn down..

I shared abit on my future plan and he started to give me that "raise eyebrow" look.. hinting that it is better to stick to what I am good at... It is such a disappointment... fews had supported me, encouraged me, and yet some pulled me down to ground zero.. The last thing I need is someone to pull me into eternal hell...

This reminded me of the show which I just watched, High School Musical... A basketball boy and a mathematic genius girl facing peer pressure to do something that they really like... which is singing, being on stage...

Well, actually I could easily just go ahead with my plan, but fragile me need confirmation and encouragement along the way and yet it is so little that I receive..

Have a very long walk today (in JB, hahahaha)... not in a very good mood, those who know me well will know that when I started walking for no reason, mean something is bothering real badly. YES, I'm very sad... very very sad...

Nothing stand clear and stay true forever,
The jewel that once shine, will lose its glory.
The pillars that used to stand by me, had crumble and fall.
I have nothing and I am all left alone.

Once again her comforting words melt my heart again... Felt so good... I think it's time...

Moving on?? I don't know if I can do it... I truly doubt I can... trying hard to move forward but I still kinda live in the past... TRIED REAL HARD to move but it's already sinking into the mud... so tired after trying... I think I just give up....

Life could have being simple if I choose not to know but it's hard. It's just like walking on a hanging bridge... suspending in the middle of 2 sides with a very narrow passageway. The wind is strong... The valley is deep. The first step is always so difficult.. so difficult...

hmmm... Am I meant to be or I have this tour guide face? Or simply I am just a Mr Good Singaporean?

Was walking around at Orchard and this lady, Rossie, from Australia approached to ask for direction to Orchard Plaza, I couldn't quite remember where is it, so I took out my map and "Ohhh, I know where it is.. Shall I show you the way?" She wondered if I ama Singaporean or not, coz I carried a tourist map all around... hahaha... It's raining heavily BUT the friendly service at Centrepoint impressed me greatly.. provide umbrella for us to cross over to the other side! Thumbs UP!! Rossie said that it is very nice of Singapore to have such service!

I really wondered... should I persue a license in tour guide??? haiz.. I mean, it's something that I like... BUT all my previous education will certainly go to waste.. HAIZ... perhaps I shall wait for another 20 years to do a midcareer change.