Everything seems so blue... My uniform, my office computer, my bedroom, my wardrode, my bed, my curtain, my T-shirt.... everything is so blue, including the day... Monday Blue.... Tired to go to work, of course... Something happened in the office actually irritated me... A mis-trust I would say... The trust is not there between the officer and us... well, I decided not to think so much about it and tried to forget about it... Stop stressing myself when I can't do much about it...

Just happen to see my calender and notice that I will ORD soon... many things start to flash thru my mind... what am I gonna do after ORD?? what field I want to do?? suddenly I felt kinda lost.... must calm myself down to gather all my thoughts....

"I dream, I can be the hero that in me......." I just performed the song "I Dream" on the Bi-annual Xtomic Election... kinda relieved that it is over... hahaha.... coming to a brand new week... I getting crazy over some gadgets... someone gotta stop me before I buy any of the following... Canon A95, Sony PS2, Nokia 6680, portable DVD players and mini fridge of my own.... ARGGGGH.... what a greedy man I am... hahaha....

Yesterday, I just had our 1st Ngee Ann Chemical Engineering Alumni... Woah... It was held at the new alumni clubhouse... well... Charles Ong (my lecturer) told me it is near blk 80... I went all the way up there and still can't figure out where is that fantastic new clubhouse till I called him to fetch us there... Once I reached the clubhouse, a so "warm" welcome by Mirko Stoll (another funky German lecturer) to me by asking me "why you ask your brother to choose the wrong path you chose? why come Chemical Engineering??" I was like ermmmm..... speechless... hahaha... saw all the lecturers... so miss the time in NP where we have SO MUCH of funs... funs like sleeping in lecture, skipping classes, eating and making so much of noise in that hateful maths lecture hall, bully Dr Vivien... YES, Dr Vivien is still the same old her, look so blur and so easily bullied... yes, short and petite as usual, so unsignificant when among the students... How I wish I can turn back the time and enjoy my Ngee Ann life again.... Haiz.... nonetheless, let's move forward and hope for a better tomorrow!!!!

Dear Rainbow,

You have no idea how much I desire for you... Every moment, I am awaiting for your appearance and you will shower me with joys and happiness... Rainbow, Rainbow, you symbolize a hope in me, a hope that I always seek... Only with you, I felt completed... Rainbow, where are you???

Rainbow, Rainbow, I am still waiting for you... You are always too busy around to shower joys to everyone... Do you know that I desire to meet you? Even just a glance, a second, I will forever treasure that precious second, that instant moment... and selfish me may wish that second is frozen and will last forever... RAINBOW.... I miss you... WHERE ARE YOU???

I am now resting on the green pasture, dazing at the sky, thinking of the last meeting, dreaming for the future meeting... I shout, "Rainbow!!! COME AND MEET ME NOW!!" No response... Soon, raindrops start falling... The sky roars... Does the sky heard of my sorrow and pity me?? I don't know... I am now awaiting for Rainbow after a shower...

With Loves and Hopes,
the lost guy

OMG... I think I am going crazy... I am now doing some research to back my "philosophy"... I am looking into human's behaviour, impact of the society on the man's thinking and culture, and many others... I must "study" hard now... hahaha... hopefully, I can complete all this and publish here... I am also looking for ppl to do some research... Simple research, just answer some questions....

Hmmmm.... can smell my mummy cooking curry.... yum yum... DINNER TIME!!!!

Stayed over in base last night coz released from duty at 2220hrs... kinda late... Woke up this morning at 0530hrs, all thanks to the screams of the alarm clock... well, the sleepy me looked at the clock and thought, "5:30am?? still early, sleep 10 more minutes...." *yawnz* and there I go.... back to lala land... at 0715hrs, I heard that noisy pattering outside my room... "Aiyoh.... so nice to sleep, don't disturb leh... diam diam lah...." Oops, something is not right... the pattering sound like rain, HEAVY rain... I opened the door, WOAH!!!! freezing air rushing in... and I noticed, "ALAMAK!!!! 7:15am liao... die die die... althought my office is just 100 m away but with that kitty and doggy weather... HOW AM I GOING BACK TO OFFICE???????" I quickly changed and sms my frd to make a turn to Tengah Inn to fetch me... he replied,"just wake up".... OMG, he live in Pasir Ris and the base is in the west... ermmm... I quickly locked up the room and braved myself thru the falling bullets rains... and reached the office, totally DRENCHED!

What if I had not gone back to sleep, I guessed all this might not have happen.... HAIZ.............

Hey, I almost forget something... Those who know me well enough, know that I am always in some serious thought, dazing away... Well, I finally figured out what I had being SO seriously in thoughts... I am now sketching it down on papers and I notice that it is some serious philosophy... Hope to publish it out when I compile it....

Time flies... Time have no mercy on those who miss it... Time wait for no one... can't believe the weekend just ended off like this. There's seem so much to achieve and yet I have achieve none... keep telling myself, "I wanna go and buy this and that... I wanna learn to cook this and that... I wanna do this and there..." BUT it came to be nato (No Action, Talk Only)... Aim of the upcoming week, to achieve the impossible... MISSION IMPOSSIBLE, here I come!!!

Tomorrow, one of the RSAF's major exercise is starting... This means that I might not be back tomorrow. AND miserable me have to reach base at 0600hrs, which like ermmm.... "so early, where got bus?" look like I have to sleep early and get up early...

For all those who are reading my blog... I am a newbie here... pardon me for my untidiness

OMG.... I can't believe I am actually doing this... writing my thoughts online... I think I will be the last person in the entire world who blog... Surprisingly, I am here... Meanwhile I am still figuring how this blog work, therefore not much entries will follow...