Life is so unexpected... Now, you are here... Next, you are gone...

I am so lost now... So stress... So sad...
My dad was talking to me this morning about work... and just now, the most shocking news came and he had left us...

I don't know how to react but to stay calm as I am taking over the head of the family. The responsibility... the pressure... and lotsa problems which will come along...

I did shed some tears although I don't really like my dad but still.... he's my dad... not best in the world but still best for me...

A lot of problems started to appear in my mind... The wake, funeral, taking care of my mum, replacing my dad income... I started to admire my job more... I know it's going to be tough... and the first claim I'm going to make is my own dad, won't be a big sum, very miserable amount... I don't know if I can handle it well but I know if this amount is for my client... my client's family member will not go through the problems I am facing... the pressure... the stress... I think I going to love my job more... much much more...

Daddy... I love you... Rest in peace....

GUILTY!!!

Spend money online again... haiz... terrible... but online shopping is so tempting... haiz...