I am overdosed!! Overdosed with green tea ice cream!! kekee....went to eat green tea gelato in the evening after a "playful" afternoon at Settlers.... I love it... I just love green tea ice cream and no one gonna change the fact!! kekee... Hmmmm....

Happy man, happy day... Watched "Orange Days" just now... I practically went crazy over it.... I learnt about 150 Japanese Sign today... The show reflected on 5 university seniors' dreams, job hunting, love and different view point of life... These 5 seniors called themselves "Orange Society", there is a deaf lady, Sae Hagio, who was very talented in volin... She studied in famous musical and have many great performances before she became deaf... After she became deaf, she lost hope on music and totally gave up... Kai Yuuki supported and help to regain her confidence in music and of course like any other story, there is some chemistry between 2 of them... It feature her determination, barrier, failure and success... 80% of the show is communicate in Sign Language.... I must say that the lead actor (Tsumabuki Satoshi) and actress (Shibasaki Kou) must have make a great deal of effort to learn the sign.... they sign so PERFECTLY....so smooth..... so graceful... Oops, I left out the actress, Shiraishi Miho, who cast as Kai's best friend, Ozawa Akane... In the show, she know sign language too.... ARRRRRRRRG.... I wanna learn JSL!!! hahaha....


Tsumabuki Satoshi

Shibasaki Kou

Yummy!! Just had GREEN TEA ICECREAM at Häagen-Dazs.... SHIOK!! have not eaten Green Tea Icecream for about 2 months and almost everynight I can hear it calling my name... Happy!! Happy!! Lalalalalala.... kekee..... Done with Green Tea Icecream... Green Tea Mooncake, Green Tea Cake are next on the list!!

BEHOLD!! The Green Tea Monster is here!!! Hahahaha!!!

Did my usual reflection of the day and today I wanna share with you my thoughts of the day...

For the past few days, I had being worrying about my hand... not because of the operations but about my future... How am I suppose to look for work with a cast on my hand?? I can't do R&D, I can't do technical work, I can't even type and write properly.... I started to worry about my bills, my expenses, my plans... ALL seems to be out of way... I was actually quite depressed even I did not show it... Don't forget, we do wear a mask....

Today, while clearing my thoughts... I recalled someone telling me,"not sure if this helps, but its not going to help to worry... itd only make u more upset" She told me this last Saturday, can't believe it take 3 days to realise the essence of it....kekee... I started to ponder upon this short but encouraging remarks... I realised something... and I have my thought of the day "Future is not for me to worry but for me to plan!!" It's taking me nowhere if I continued to think and worry about it... I muz start planning!! and I know this road is not easy for me until my hand fully recovered...

This is an immediate blog of another freaky incident that happened 1 minute ago.... I was chatting online with binz and out of sudden, CHIRP CHIRP, CHIRP.... loud and clear... behind my back, I turned around and spotted nothing... I wondered, what bird chirp so late at this hour?? and disappeared almost right away.... search the whole house but no bird is found!
OMG, What is happening to me??

It was 20 August 2005, 0257 hrs... I was closing the windows like any other nitez... and I saw a girl walking below the block opposite me... I decided to watch her walked to her destination just in case anything happen to her, I could call the police or wat... she walked behind a tree... and I was expecting her to come out from the other side or towards the block.... but she DISAPPEARED!!!!

I waited and waited.... thought she was hiding behind the tree but she never appeared...

# The above blog is based on an actual event!! FREAKY!!

A Night of Misery

Right now, Jim is feeling really miserable... felt so lost... felt like part of me had departed far away from Jim... Felt like strength vanished into thin air... Dreams and hopes just brusted like a ballon... he told me that he is approaching the Door soon... "Which Door??", I asked, he replied,"The Door to the new me...." What is going on with Jim? How I wish I know.....

ahdai....

Read an interesting email and wanna share with u all... Please tell me if there is any inaccuracy in the below article. I will check all details when I am done with Korea History...

HISTORY
Have a history teacher explain this----- if they can.

Abraham Lincoln was elected to Congress in 1846.
John F. Kennedy was elected to Congress in 1946.

Abraham Lincoln was elected President in 1860.
John F. Kennedy was elected President in 1960.

Both were particularly concerned with civil rights.
Both wives lost their children while living in the White House.

Both Presidents were shot on a Friday.
Both Presidents were shot in the head.

Now it gets really weird.

Lincoln 's secretary was named Kennedy.
Kennedy's Secretary was named Lincoln.

Both were assassinated by Southerners.
Both were succeeded by Southerners named Johnson.

Andrew Johnson, who succeeded Lincoln, was born in 1808.
Lyndon Johnson, who succeeded Kennedy, was born in 1908.


John Wilkes Booth, who assassinated Lincoln, was born in 1839.
Lee Harvey Oswald, who assassinated Kennedy, was born in 1939.


Both assassins were known by their three names.
Both names are composed of fifteen letters.

Now hang on to your seat.

Lincoln was shot at the theater named 'Ford.'
Kennedy was shot in a car called ' Lincoln' made by 'Ford.'

Lincoln was shot in a theater and his assassin ran and hid in a warehouse. Kennedy was shot from a warehouse and his assassin ran and hid in a theater.

Booth and Oswald were assassinated before their trials.

And here's the kicker...

A week before Lincoln was shot, he was in Monroe, Maryland
A week before Kennedy was shot, he was with Marilyn Monroe.

With these few days on MC... I finally managed to watch "Da Chang Jin" also known as "Dae Jang Geum" on SCV... Wah! I just can't take it.... It's very nice and the show is going TOO slow! I mean 1 episode a day? AND no show on Sat and Sun... It is a torture... SO tempted to buy the show... arhhh... So expensive! Anyone out there have the show and is able to lend me?? kekee....

The show fire my interests in Korean History again.... read up quite a lot on it these few days.... and I found out that there is historical records on Jang Geum aka Chang Jin... Dae Jang Geum was a real person recorded in the Annals of Joseon Dynasty!!! She was the first female royal physician in Korean history and she attended to King Jungjong.... Ohhhhhhh.... she has got an honor to be the only royal physician in attendance on the king, and she is heading the palace medical group, the nation's top post in this area.

I also find out the Ranking System of the Court Ladies.... very interesting.... Basically, government offices are divided into nine grades, and this simple chart would help explain it: 1a, 1b, 2a, 2b, 3a, 3b, 4a, 4b, 5a, 5b, 6a, 6b, 7a, 7b, 8a, 8b, 9a, 9b (A and B being Jung and Jong in Korean). Grade 1a is the highest, and grade 9b the lowest.



According to Dae Jang Geum, high palace ladies (sanggung) are at 5a. It was not possible for women to get past that, except for the royalty or consorts of the king. For those who wish to find out more, feel free to ask me!

Few of my favourite quotes

"Become the Highest Kitchen Lady of the Royal Palace, Jang-geum, and write down my grievances in the secret document that's passed down ... But it is your choice to make. If you don't want to be a court lady, or you don't become the Highest Kitchen Lady, you must not read [my letter], or show or tell others about it." -- Jang-geum's mother to Jang-geum


"As the one who prepares the food holds her own conviction and principles, the one who eats the food should also have the same principles, should he not? The one who prepares the food only wished to protect my health, but I indulged myself in whatever I wanted to eat. I have neglected my own body. How could I be eating food that was harmful to my body? I realized now that the one who eats the food has principles to abide by as well. In addition, the food you presented used the same seasonings, thus tasting like wild vegetables, flat and tasteless. But the more I tasted it, the more tasty it felt ... it was delicious ... This was a taste I had not experienced before. Though Joseon is a small country with few territories and people, your heart's capacity is even greater than the vast territories of our empire." --Ming Chinese envoy to Jang-geum

"When I make food, I always hope the person who eats it would have a smile on his or her face." --Jang-geum to Min Jung-ho

Went to watch Dim Sum Dollies again.... all thanks to the complimentary tickets from Jerry of "A Nation In Concert".... I never get bored watching it.... In fact, this is wat I love about musicals and plays (theatre productions).... Every time you watch give you a different feeling... Really enjoyed the show VERY much...

Took photos with the casts.... of course, same old me... I like to hide my face somewhere... kekee... Hossan Leong looked so CUTE!!! Selena is so pretty.... aiyah... all of them are so pretty lah!! and yes, very shiny of course....

SO guys!! Last show of Dim Sum Dollies is on 20 Aug 05!! CATCH IT!!

My craziness get over me.... almost drove my frd mad just now.... hahaha.... Read On!

I stood beside the AXN Machine and I started talking to my frd....
"Once a month, you will face that problem again.... It bring you so much problems and troubles.... It come without any warning.... You will start to worry more and more... every moment... BUT, Now worry no more... Please use AXN Machine to pay your bills and you will not worry about it for another day"

I stood in front of the toilet paper and said,
"I can't live without u.... U have practically become part of my life.... Whenever I am sick, I think of you... whenever I am eating, I think of you.... Even when I am in the toilet.... I think of you.... XX Brand Toilet Paper, cheap and useful...."

when we walked to the bus stop, my craziness came again....
"In the darkest moment, I am here.... waiting for u.... In the heaviest rain, I am here.... waiting for you.... Under the hot sun, and there.... I am still waiting for you.... Rain and Shine, without fail, I am waiting for you.... Holland Road Bus Stop! A best place to wait for Bus!"

hahaha.... someone please call IMH!!! hahahaha

Bravo!! "A Nation In Concert", ANIC in short, is finally over!! It is fantastic!! I am totally impressed by the script writer and director who managed to make the musical SO interesting... The costume of everyone look fantastic! All thanks to Francis Louis... YES.... I am still very impressed by the Xtomic's "Larger Than Life".... It is so cool!!! And yes! another item, "One Day I'll Fly Away" is very good too, especially in that costume with the wing... ARRRG.... dunno how to describe the show!! the show is simply beyond description and you can only experience the beauty only when u watch it! How I wish there is another show.... kekee... *applause*



Today could be my happiest day of the month.... catch ANIC at 1530hrs and Dim Sum Dollies at 2000hrs... Reached Esplanade at about 1300hrs... trying to help out with their costumes... hopefully I was not a burden than a helper.... kekee.... I was actually quite angry in the morning as my frd actually sms me tat he was not free for the show and I was like.... OMG... last minute and how am I suppose to find ppl to watch the show.... WELL, I shall not let this unhappy thing bother me!

YES, those whose have not watched Dim Sum Dollies.... please catch it! It is really funny.... I must agree with lane that the part on "Lucy Liu", "Ziyi Zhang" and "Bruce Lee" is very comical and funny... Emma Yong who acted as Ziyi Zhang sounded exactly like Ziyi herself....

Next show in mind will be "Separation 40" by The Necessary Stage (Singapore) & Dramalab (Malaysia) and "Oi! Sleeping Beauty!!" by W!ld Rice... Yes.... Christina Sergeant and Karen Tan, who volunteered to act in ANIC, will be acting in this musical too... and YES! The Director for ANIC write the musical, "Oi! Sleeping Beauty!!".....


Oi! Sleeping Beauty!!


Separation 40

"Hi, Mr Koh..." A handsome doctor walked towards me... "this is Dr Peng... how are you?"

He have the greatest smile I ever seen among all the doctors... I went to NUH today for an appointment with Othropaedic Clinic regarding my fracture wrist... He examined the x-ray taken on Monday at the A&E while the nurse was removing my cast... (my skin breathe!!) STARING at the X-ray film... then he asked another handsome doctor (wow, all the handsome doctors are here...) to study my x-ray film together... AGAIN, STARING CLOSELY!!! I am wondering if they saw my hidden treasure box inside my bone... hahahaha... then one wise man walked past and said, "Hi... ermmm... Mr Koh... How are you?" then he walked toward the 2 doctors and AGAIN START STARING at my x-ray film and started whispering.... Dr Ping came to me and told me that I may need to take another x-ray, upclosed on the wrist to get the clearer picture... (omg... so much of radiation I suffered!!) He explained all the biological term and stuff which I don't wanna bored u to death... and said,"This is quite a complicated case but don't worry, we may need to remove some bone from ur hip and transfer it to ur wrist..." My mind went,"DON'T WORRY????? MAJOR OPS leh!!!"

I returned to the Dr Ping after taking that x-ray and all 3 doctors looked so puzzled... wondering why was it not upclosed? ONCE AGAIN, they started looking for treasure in my bone... and told me, "thru these x-ray, we are now very certain that u have fracture ur wrist... (dude, I know that, otherwise why would the A&E send me to u?) BUT we may need to do a CT Scan on ur wrist to get a clearer picture on how bad is it... meanwhile I shall extend ur MC for another week" (OMG, MC again??? rot to death at home man!)

While I was walking toward the cashier to get my next appt date, I saw a deaf patient communicating with the nurse using pen and paper... I think I forget my pain and walked towards them and asked the nurse if she need an interpreter, she said "Oh thanks, but it don't think I need it anymore..." after that I started to chat with that lady , Priscilla.... OMG... I can't believe I can sign... totally forgotten about my pain... kekee... I started to interpret for her from one clinic to another clinic... OOOOOOOOH!!! I am so happy!!! I signed without any mistake and interpret perfectly... WOW!!! 2nd attempt to interpret for a deaf.... 1st attempt kinda done quite badly... I felt the achievement.... kekee...I found out that my next appt is the same as hers.... kekee.... maybe able to meet up to chat... kekee... AND yes, she is staying quite near me.... hmmm... stupid me, forgot to get her contact...

After the appt at NUH, I went to Ngee Ann Polytechnic (NP) to visited lecturers.... LSCT change a lot, now the staff office is open office concept... and students can't enter... Saw Mirko Stoll, he was of course to see me in cast... well, he read the blog which I written a few weeks back on the alumni stuffs... saying that I wrote badly about him... OKAY!! I shall praise you!! Mirko Stoll is a handsome guy from Germany, sorry ladies, he is married... he is a very nice, honest, talkative lecturer that I had in my poly years... he cares a lot for the students, very considerate.... like to complain here and there but that is the fun side of him... (Sir, if u are reading this.... HAPPY??? hahahaha....)

I left the office and started to float around like a lost soul looking for familiar faces... there! I saw Dr Vivien Lim.... nickname lim mei mei, she still look equally lost and pretty... same old stressed up hair... time to rebond leh la.... kekee... nice lady indeed... So young and she is a PhD holder... My IDOL.... hahahaha....

went to the bus stop and OMG saw Mr Warden? I remembered the time when I was in poly, the wardens were always patrolling NP to catch students with long hair, dyed hair, wearing shorts, improper dressing... Oh WHY?? WHY??? can't believe NP still have wardens patrolling around the campus... I was SO tempted to walk towards him to ask him,"I am ex-student of NP and I have a question to ask u... Do you guys have a quota to meet every month, why were you guys always catching ppl with long hair and stuffs? Got commission arh? hahaahaa!!"

I just discharged from the hospital... I fainted and injuried both my wrists... After x-ray, doctor told that I fractured my right wrist and ligament injury on my left wrist... I almost wanted to cried... not because of the pain but the passion to sign... Only then, I know that my passion for sign language is so much... i felt completely closed up, quarantined, jailed... I felt a barrier... I also tried to use the hp with my left hand and noticed that i have little or no energy to type sms... those who sms these few days... i'm sorry, i will respond quite slowly...

when i was about to discharge, the nurse asked me to sign some documents.. my master hand is my right hand... fracture, in cast, therefore can't sign.. then tried to use my left hand.. i can't hold the pen properly... i was like.... arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am useless!!!!!!!!! so he asked me to find someone to discharge, to sign the discharge letter... I asked lane, as she is "nearby"... when she reached... the nurse told us that there is nothing to sign... sorry, lane... caused u to rush down... i was sort of fuming in madness but my sorrows buried me again... i can't believe i spend 1 hours plus to type this short blog.... the time now is 1548hrs...

*add-on*
Due to "popular" demand... I shall explain why I fainted... according to the doctor, the blood was not circulating to my head and then I blacked out... dunno how i fell and injured both my hands... current condition, stable... left hand totally no strength... and very pain.... right hand in cast-bandage... better now.... but i can't feed myself... i need a maria!! who can be my maria?? haha...

I was so excited and happy when I got my pass to "A Nation In Concert"... Although my item was taken taken out hence not performing and yet I am given the pass... I went so happy.... my second pass to Esplanade!! kekeke... muz start collecting pass le.... kekee....



And YES you!! You who are reading my blog now, if you have yet to visit the webby and buy the tickets, Please do so NOW!! Please Support!! Thanks!!! http://www.anationinconcert.com/

Saw this lovely poem while surfing the net just now!! Woah!! Fantastic.... I shall love!!

Si c’est aimer, Madame, et de jour et de nuict,
Resver, songer, penser le moyen de vous plaire,
Oublier toute chose, et ne vouloir rien faire
Qu’adorer et servir la beauté qui me nuit,
Si c’est aimer, de suivre un bonheur qui me fuit,
De me perdre moymesme et d’estre solitaire,
Souffrir beaucoup de mal, beaucoup craindre et me taire,
Pleurer, crier mercy, et m’en voir esconduit,
Si c’est aimer, de vivre en vous plus qu’en moymesme,
Cacher d’un front joyeux une langueur extresme,
Sentir au fond de l’àme un combat inegal,
Chaud, froid, comme la fievre amoureuse me traitte,
Honteux, parlant à vous, de confesser mon mal :
Si cela c’est aimer, furieux je vous aime,
Je vous aime, et sçay bien que mon mal est fatal,
Le coeur le dit assez, mai la langue est muette.

English rendition by D.B. Wyndham Lewis:

If to love, Madam, is to dream and long
and brood by day and night on means of pleasing you,
to be forgetful of all else, to wish to do nothing else
but adore and serve the beauty that wounds me,

If to love is to pursue a happiness which flies me,
to lose myself in loneliness, to suffer much pain,
to fear greatly and to hold my tongue,
to weep, to beg for pity, and to see myself sent away,

If to love is to live in you more than in myself,
to hide great weariness under a mask of joy,
to feel in the depths of my soul the odds against which I fight,
to be hot and cold as the fever of love takes me,
To be ashamed, when I speak to you, to confess my pain –
if that is to love, then I love you furiously,
I love you, knowing full well my pain is deadly.
The heart says so often enough; the tongue is silent.

I am bursting into tears.... suddenly I felt all alone... left all alone by myself... wanted to step out of the house so much... but... I felt that the world has abandon me...

All the colours have departed away... away from my life... Living a life without colours... colours of hopes, loves, joys and laughters... All I see around me is black and white... Where have all the colours gone??

All the flavours have faded away... Honey that don't taste sweet anymore, Lime don't taste sour anymore... Living a life so bland... so tasteless... It is now when delicacy lost it flavours... Where have all the flavours gone??

All the smell of nature have ignored me... I no longer smell the falling rain of hopes, coz I have no more hopes... I no longer smell the sea of love, coz I have gave up all... I no longer smell the forest of life, coz I am not given any.... Where have all the smell of nature gone??

All the sounds have hide away from me... I no longer hear cheers and celebrations, coz I found no victory... I no longer hear music of laughter, coz I found nothing to laugh and be joyful about... I no longer hear wailing and crying, coz sorrow have buried me deep into the soil... Where have all the sounds gone??

All the feeling have gathered and left me... I no longer feel pain, coz I had bear much more pain before... I no longer feel happiness, coz nothing in this world worth to be happy... I no longer feel sad, coz all the sorrows I had, had drowned me entirely... This body is nothing but an empty shell... Where have all the feelings gone??

Perhaps one day, I shall walk through that door and find a new me....

星星的故事

最早没有那么多的星。
但当人们开始恋爱时，他们的心飞到天上去了，然后变成了星星。
那意味着这世界是充满着爱的。那是我们所不知道的。

This is just like any other nights, quiet it seem to be... I was doing what I was doing every night.... reading blog of other, just like you, reading my blog now.... Suddenly a chill wind blow across my ears... I look around, no one..... it was getting more and more quiet.... SUDDENLY, my phone across the hall rang, I dashed all the way out and answered the phone.... and the line went dead.... I went so mad and said, "who is making fun of me?? midnight liao leh...."

When back to the room, as quiet as usual.... from far I heard, "thump, thump, thump" continuous.... I freaked out.... I decided to walk to the living room and take a look.... the sound got louder and louder every step when I moved towards the balcony... I looked out of the windows and stared at the basketball court.... wondering who is playing basketball... It's too dark.... I couldn't see anyone.... I got freaked out even more.... I decided to take the keys and go downstair to check it out... wanted to take the lift, but fear overtaken me.... I thought taking steps might be safer.... The sound was getting louder and LOUDER as I was approaching the void deck.... I checked out the basketball court, standing from far.... visibility was still not very good, all thanks to all those burning... very smoky.... I decided to move towards the court and..................................

2 malay secondary school guys playing basketball, I got kinda irritated and told them off... "Hi guys, I am kinda lost around the area, may I know where is this place and what is the time now?" one of them replied, "Jurong West st 65... 1am..." they continued to bounce the ball, "I continued to ask, may I know where is the nearest Police Station, coz I wanna make a complaint that someone is playing basketball at Jurong West st 65, 1AM...." they looked at me and started to look kinda panicky.... and said, "Sorry, we going liao..." I turned around, and saw 2 policemen, hahaha.... The policemen gave US a warning not to play basketball as someone had called to complain... I took out my ID card and show that policeman, "Sorry sir, I stay around this area and I got freaked out by the basketball sound especially during 7th Month, sound like bouncing of a 'lost head', therefore I came down to checked it out... " that policeman giggled and apologised.... hahahaha....

There is Celebrations, there is Cheers... but I found no Victory...
There is Inventions, there is Discoveries... but I saw nothing Amazing...
There is Songs, there is Musics...but I found nothing worth Listening...
There is Birth, there is Beginning...but I have nothing Accomplished...
There is Noises, there is Echoes... but I heard None....
There is Death, there is Fall... and through it, I have Everything...

I can't believe what happened.... I didn't ate the whole of 2nd Aug 05 and I didn't noticed it till I reached home with a sudden pain in my stomach and I lied on the sofa in my living room, MOTIONLESS.... almost fainted...

Earlier on, I still happily went to SADeaf to change the result slip with the idea of having something light, like the Tou Jiang You Tiao, at the Geylang, the heaven of food and delicacies, but due to some change of plan, I totally forget to go Geylang to makan.... BEST!! can forget to bring keys, books and stuffs but HOW CAN FORGET TO EAT???

Anyway, I am now in great pain.... Suffering in Silence!

Did I just woke up or just slept??? Sleepless nitez.........

What had I just did???